+ Paintball +

"Upon thy cheek I lay this zealous kiss, as seal to the indenture of my love." - Shakespeare, from King John Act II Scene I

Finally, get the chance to watch how a painball match would be like..
21st March - TBS was having their paintball competition at TT sports and it supposed to be started at 4pm..But, it rained like cats and dogs..

Oh well, i gt to meet one of the TBS paintball club's BOD..and talked a little bit bout setting up a club for MEtro and the competition..Yada yada..
Some of the player are quite noob..(i noe i M not qualified in saying this..because i m one of them but i guess i m at least better?) But at least they tried..not like me =.= I just haven really prepare myself for it..Mayb i m old d T.T

I really gt jealous easily...why why why???...
Silly me T.T

- A silent hug means a thousands words to the unhappy heart -

Designs by Crz

+Remove the Sins, Reveal The beauty +

Inspiration is all it takes to a creation - Crztal

+ Love is in the air +

Just a little one from me - to - you...

+ Another sentimental value +

New discoveries >>

Woke up in the early morning..sensational morning breeze..
My heart was pounding so fast...especially when i was outside the house.
Wanted to sit at the staircase besides the house and cool down first..mana tau that bi so noti..laugh at me pula Y.Y people really nervous ma..
scared i m not good enough or parents don't like me..BUt bi, if they do...tel me k..at least i noe how to improve =)

Well..his mom is really scary nice... In the picture, she looks abit fierce that's why i was scared.. BUt, Reality is always different.. She's so nice and kind..polite?..yes that's the word...

I left my bag at his place and so he has to send it back to me during evening time.. Hmm..we toured walked around the "remoted" area of USj3...It was quite relaxing + cooling to me..eventhough we were just touring around..I felt the happiness in a sudden =) at least we did something healthy together..

Now..i know what's my imperfect part of being a gf..
I do not know how to comfort him in phone..
when he needs one..
I will just listen..and i can feel what he's feeling..
I was pissed as well..I wanted to help..i actually tot of asking who the hell the guy is and finish teach him a lesson =) of cuz not by me la..hmm...BUt reality memang lidat..For godness sake..I haven't really experience one in my college..Mayb i shud try out once..to really really experience that feeling..Just for you =)

"My advice to you is not to inquire why or whither, but just enjoy your ice cream while it is on your plate." - Thornton Wilder

Busyness

GOSH..let's conclude what i m busying with lately >>

1. STylo fashion week
2. Coming exam on next wed
3. prepare for ms.metro preview
- design and sew the own designs..
- think of what shit to wear for casual theme
4. think of how to cut cost (metroball)
5. tuition
6. paintball club
7. Religion's assignments
- survey around
- write about martin luther king and debate
- read a book and summarize ( I REALLY HAVE NO TIME FOR ALL THESE)
8. do homevisitation with my members
9. Organize a fashion show (with my designs and zenne beat renna shen....)
10. circle-k visits to orang asli village
11. revisions
12.BElly dance

PITY ME????..hmm..it's really tiring..but it actually makes my life more meaningful..but I NID BUDGET!!...money money come..haha..try to bargain with mommy first :D

MOst important..i have to apologize with my hubby..
I cant spend time with him lately... *cuddle* hehe..

STYLO + Kl fashion week + paintball

Our common topic >>> PAINTBALL
Actually he teaches me ALOT about paintball..and it actually helps me in my social relationship..In what way?..hmm...Like organizing a paintball club..and i will pull people around to join..eventho i met them for once..

I really wana try out once to see how it actually feels..SO dat i can get more excited when we talk bout it..And I wish to see him train la..but why is it on weekends T.T have to wait for my PAvillion fashion week tingy to over first..

Toking bout fashion week..M working for Stylo..this blog suppose to write down things about me and hubby stuff..but m too excited bout it..so m just gona show the pics k XD MUAXXXXX

+ Sacrification +

Hmm..Wanted to find definition of sacrification..but cant get one that suites the situation...
After all..Maintaining a relationship is real hard.. but it's challenging oso..
we have to tolerate and be patient with one another..And not to expect anything from your partner but their unconditional love.

"Love is indescribable and unconditional. I could tell you a thousand things that it is not, but not one that it is."
Duke Ellington
BI...T.T i wished dat u could just love me more than I do..
Yes..u have no qualities...but Some miracle strength has just pull me over to you..
maybe it's becuz that u sent me some horny aura of yours to me..den i got attracted haha..like some animal's behavior ...>.<

One thing that i really njoy bout our relationship is dat>> we always tok so stupid..wat my tiger and king of the jungle..and my lord and servant..haha..=.=
BI..MUUAXXXXXXXXXX

"To love someone is to see a miracle invisible to others."
Francois Mauriac

+ Imperfect +

Love is just a sudden passion..way of maintaining it is the key of a successful relationship

YEs.. starting a new relationship after 9 months of SInGle LiFe..I had been seeking for My mR.Right but mostly are my juniors..And I blif youngsters at my age...need more experience bfore getting a Long relationship. I chose this guy..<-S-> We started officially on 28FEb..

It's been 16days over..And on the 17th, we got this little UNHAPPY SITUATIOn..
I was joking saying things without much consideration..and I always used to it with my ex(s)..but i never know it would bring such a big effect to him..No wonder he got pissed off when i said "I HATe him" on that night..He got pissed off..but does he know I was so shocked and lost when he got pissed of?..I dun even noe what's happening..

He expressed himself thru msn...But he doesn't noe that it isn't a good way to do it...Ms. Malini is right..Whenever we need to talk bout a problem or have a good talk...it's better do it face-to-face. Bcuz if we use technology (Sms, email, msn...), there wil be lotsa barriers..We cant see the body language, we cant see how the people really feel..And the aura that the person sent out..

However, we can't meet all the time..That's the imperfect part of our relationship..I m still a little girl -- WIngs are not fully grown yet.

When he was "venting his grievances" at me..I was really speechless..I din noe that I was hurting him with my words..And I had tried my BEST..THE BEST I CAN to be a GOOD gf..I want him to be proud of me..But still..he "complains"... That's why i was speechless..How can i improve?..And when he said he will shut his mouth and wont talk to me about problems anymore..I stunned..If u r not gona share things with me anymore..wat is the meaning of being together...T.T ANd..it's not that not good of expressing ur feelings..but please..U know how to say it to me..and why don't u practice it as well..Use nicer way..Or do it in person...so i can hug u and shut ur lips with my mouth..

I know i m capricious...But Please deal with it sometimes...please bi..

"if u r not good in speaking..how r we gona communicate? " >> this was what he said..
YES.. i m really bad in speaking or comforting my partner when it's a bad situation...i will start to talk crap without thinking much..that's why i will keep quiet..but he wil think that i m ignoring him..o.O

*When i was shopping..i will think of you..
*When i was having fun..i will think of you..
*When i got something...i will wana share it with you..
*When i was cooking/baking..i will wana do one for you..
*When i was with other guys..i will not be interested in them...
*When i am with you..I tried things that i have never wana try with others..
*When you have problems..i will listen and digest it...
-- BUt..what is it that lack in our relationship?..why is there still complain..
I AM SO SAD...when i know that u r not happy with me...

[dun u know d more attention u giv to dat person..d more he doesnt know how to appreciate...luv = its either u luv him more or he luvs u more] --> from a fren of mine..but i blif we both love each other the same..which is so much that we couldnt even count with percentage..like what i did last time..

~ Thx for saying me a great gf..but iknow there're still things for me to learn..