* Beautiful Wish *

I created this blog because of muh ex-bf..
now that we're over, but i still keep this blog because it's the sweetest blog i have created =)

Monday, April 28, 2008

Paintball..

Yeah yeah yeah..lets blog about paintball..*but nothing much to blog about..

Finally, it's over..
Eventho the second team pulled out at the very last min..but it's ok..
I still have my buddy with me =)

SPECIAL REGARDS TO >>> Beatrice, Daryl, Chelsey, Charles, Christopher, Pregash, Andy and mY HUBBY!!! muahahah~~

*Heart u guys*

The Rose...

Some say love, it is a river
that drowns the tender reed
Some say love, it is a razor
that leaves your soul to bleed
Some say love, it is a hunger
an endless aching need.
I say love, it is a flower
and you its only seed

It's the heart afraid of breaking
that never learns to dance
It's the dream afraid of waking
that never takes the chance
It's the one who won't be taken.
who cannot seem to give
and the soul afraid of dyin'
that never learns to live

When the night has been too lonely
and the road has been too long
and you think that love is only
for the lucky and the strong
just remember in the winter
far beneath the bitter snows
lies the seed that with the sun's love
in the spring becomes the rose....

Pain in the memories

Like the wind that blows away
Like the star that shines all night
I will pray
days and nights
for our love
so divine
to stay all life

Like the rain that falls from sky
Like the tears drops on my face
Ah~~~
my heart's bleeding
And please let me stay...by yourside



By crz to wayne =) WC

= KISS GOODBYE =

MUAHHAHA...fight fight fight..Quarrel quarrel quarrel.."basically"..those were what we always do..

but..when people fight..then only it will help to strengthen the relationship..eventho during the quarrel moment..u feel like slapping him and kick his balls..HMPH!!

and..soon..I m GONA LOSE him...

28th April 2008 - 2months d...
but feel abit empty...
Haha..

soon..he's gona kiss goodbye to Malaysia..haha
was abit exaggerated here....I definitely wish that he can do something that he likes =) which is not sitting in front of the comp/office..start work at 9 then go back at 5 or later than that..
However..i wondered..if his parents would agree..
anyway..i guess his perspective has changed..HE HIMSELF said that before..and now said different thing..but good also la..I get more freedom which is not what i need from him..haiz..Take care yourself la..
*hugss*

Wednesday, April 23, 2008

Ms Metro Preview



This is one of the best pics I've took for the day..I really like that "design" as if like i m goin for dinner >.< haha

well..let's get back to the top top part first..hmm...of cuz' first..i have to show you what's going on >>>





* MR & MS METRO PREVIEW 2008 *

IF you weren't there for this preview...let me tell you ONE THING!! I HAVE NEVER EVER seen this crowd in Metro Concourse before.. Wan prove??





It's me "catwalking" for the first round of elimination..LOok at the crowd behind me...STUNT!! especially u know the feeling where u wan into the crowd and being the limelight..Memalukan...Dat's why i cant stop giggling and laughing out..
Beat's line >> WHAT THE MAShmallow!!


The first round's theme - casual wear..which is what i used to wear to college...hmm...i guess my dressing abit exaggerated right? But who cares ~ it's ME!
lolz

Den..the second round's theme - creative wear...outfit that reflects ur personality..
I guess I m a Responsible + serius + creative + hot if i wannabe person..haha..so Formal wear should be able to reflect me..ZOMG~ suddenly tot of one song now..<> cause i baru read chelsey's blog haha...

OK~ so dis is it~~ taken during my interview~~




*interview session - there are 2 parts of interview.. first >> why do u dress like dis?.. " Three characteristics..FIrst..i m hot *swt...wild...AND most importantly, it looks really nice on me.. " haha...I feel so lame with my words after all...

Then, they asked me...what's the biggest regrets in your life?
My friends ask me to answer " I have no regrets in my life!! " ...But gal..i cant lie..I do have..but not much..maybe 2 of them =)...
I answered " i guess it's that i din go after my dream which is taking fashion design course and bla bla bla bla.."

Finally, done..

Now..the elimination time...Honestly, i feel so stupid standing there...everyone's eye lookin at u..If it's because for some academic award or scholarship or presentation thing..i really don mind..BUT GOSH! it's because of one stupid pageant thing...all this VANITY...which is so not like me..I cant even smile naturally..SO fake..COMPARE it yourself >>




SEE WHAT I MEAN???? haiz...

Enjoy the pics below la~~




- The guys NOminees -



- The JUdges -



- Ying Hao, me, Renna, Chelsey - hmm..tsu zenne's missing



- EMCee of the day -



- HAhA!! GOT YA!! trying out WII -



- activities of the day -

The ReBorN of Dying Pheonix

--- ~ I m reborn ~

Sounds so sarcastic...But true...I feel like The day has break.. I saw white light..* white light - hope...

First of all, Paintball had really got onto my nerves.. SERIOUS SHIT!! Since the first day I decided to organize, I have predicted obstacles..BUT..Not so much of them..till my pants drop...coming after one another..sometimes two and more at a same time..

I was helpless all the time...

Till one day I posted the "brochure" on a forum..I wished to postpone the date AGAIN!! What's wrong with me?...I FELT DAMN BLOODY GUILTY..I WAS LIKE postponing and PostPoNing AND POSTPONING AGAIN!!!...CHANGE CHANGE CHANGE...

ONE Word >>>>>> PREPARATION

not enough of time for preparation..

After talking to a "Senior"..lolz..it does help..at least not like people that asked me to CHill..no worries...people will join..* i said this without offense and without againsing anyone..I believed they are just trying to chill me down and comfort me..thanks anyway =)

Now..i took out the prizes sponsor...as to fulfil the first and second motive of mine..TRY-OUT..and a game for him..tho it's a small one..but trust me..there will be second one..=) I will not ask you to go find another girl d..Cuz i HAVE to PERSEVERE and HAVe FAITH =) in me..you..and EVERYONE..

Thursday, April 17, 2008

PAINTBALL'S DYING

FRUSTRATION + WORRY + EMO + STRESS + RUSH

It's to describe my feelings now...
'None' of them know the seriousness of this..tell them about it..they will just say "don worry..people will join"..How can i not worry?..I promised Andrew for 10 teams..SO I have to get 10 teams the least..I SUPPOSED I HAD 10 teams...but now..every thing's gone.. left 4 teams behind..people that gave me hope to join pull out at the very last moment..telling me things that i tried to avoid..FGT IT~ i will never do anything for them anymore...AND..THanks BI..thanks for ur support...and seng kwee and yee hong...
They are the one that never doubt of it...And I wish they win the game la =)
And i wish the game can still be on..

*IF i have no sponsor, then i dun have to worry to cancel the game..but now..i CANT..


Anyone that i dono please join this game?
IT's called paintball BROTHER!
U HAVE TO FEEL THE PAIN!!
THat's the fucking fun of it!
MONEY?!
THERE're WAYS OF GETTING IT!
GO ROB lA!
SELL ASS!


* sori..it's abit rude to say all those things...but please und me..
I spend whole month for this..and WORRY WORRY WORRY WORRY every single fucking day..
I am human as well..showing my happy face everyday...doesnt mean i m not worried for it...AND NOW..I EXPLODE!!!

Tuesday, April 8, 2008

PERSEVERANCE + DIALOGUE

Perseverance..
I just need to persevere through these..

I m being not considerate in some ways..but I m SO CONSIDERATE if wana compare me to other girls..If people call it inconsiderate..i would rather call myself Brainless and Capricious..
yes..I m so sorry for doing things without thinking the consequences..But i learned now..

I went and search articles about Ways to IMpRove Relationships
I feel like i did all the points but not one of them..

Be a good listener

And show a sincere interest in what's happening in the other person's life. Remember that we have one mouth but two ears - use this as a reminder of how much talking to engage in versus how much listening.

Put yourself in the other person's shoes

As a good listener momentarily step into the other person's world (without being sucked into their negative states). Being in the other person's world requires that you listen with openness. In other words, while you are listening you do that and only that - you listen. This may take a bit of practice since most people tend to partially listen, while internally preparing or rehearsing what they are going to say next. This is in line with the very important NLP Principle of respecting others' Model of the World.

Empathy rather than sympathy

Empathy means understanding and having a feel for their difficulty without trying to get involved unless asked. Sympathy, feeling sorry for them, is disrespectful and indicates that you believe that they, on their own, do not have the resources to handle their own difficulty.

Look for the other person's good points

There will be plenty of these and you have a choice in whether you pay more attention to their good points or their imperfections. The more you discover a person's good points and focus on these the more your respect for them increases.

Keep in touch

Even if you last were together a few hours earlier, at breakfast perhaps, how about a one-minute phone call to ask how their day is going or to tell them you are thinking of them?


I WASn't aware of that point until what happen yesterday...
I tried to search for that point before this...But i couldnt
BUT nOw..I Found THose good points in him..
And i will MAKE his bad point a good one..That's what partner for..Improve us to be a better man..

And for his parents..What i can do now is..Not to do things that will cause bad impressions..Tho i had already done it..IT's FINE...Time can prove everything..I will prove them wrong =)
None of us are perfect..We have good points but we do have bad points sometimes..ANd people usually see negatives over the positives..BUT..if people cant accept the way we are..-BeTHatWaY- there are still places that can fit us..But..first thing first...I Wana PRactice Things that i learn from my practice of law of Buddhism>> Dialogue

Wednesday, April 2, 2008

+ Work under pressure +

=)
PISSED + GERAM + disappointed + helpless + emo + pain + suffering + stressed + .....

SEE! when things are getting good..u will fall to the deep down on another day..

JUst like what i m facing today...
LIFE! life without parents >>>

INTERESTING LIFE~

FRIEND? i was so helpless and told me fren? Screw it..

“When life sucks and hands you lemons, I say beat the crap out of it and demand some Florida oranges as well.”